Focus.... Focus....

As I sit here and study for the bar exam in July, I sometimes pause and wonder why I'm putting myself through this... which leads to even deeper questions of why I went to law school in the first place...
I vaguely remember... I think it had something to do with wanting to help people when others were trying to take advantage of them.... and certainly so I wouldn't be taken advantage of by others... but after practicing for just a few years, I start thinking of the days of driving the truck and how simple they were... that wasn't so bad! But then I quickly remember how old that got and how quickly it got old.
The great thing about driving the truck was, in short, you just had a route to drive and it was you and the radio in the truck - no one looking over your shoulder... no judge giving you the what for... no clients telling you how much they wanted what you knew they couldn't rightfully get... and of course, no adversary calling you after hours to tell you how weak your case is (no matter how much he knew it wasn't true).
I know there was something noble about my reasons for going to law school, but I don't remember exactly when I got disillusioned (I can't say that I am completely)...
There was one time while I was in school, I was studying torts and I was marvelling (more like flabberghasted) at how silly some of the lawsuits were.... I went to my professor's office to talk about these cases and told him how frustrated I was because I used to think that the law was all noble and supposed to be the safety net for those in need.... but it turns out it was all about who had the deepest pockets. Without missing a beat, my professor looked at me and said, "yeah, but as long as they pay US..."
Well... needless to say, I continued, graduated and began practicing... and so far, I haven't found my noble cause.... it's still all about the money.
Have I lost my focus?